The sound in Mello's quieter, more open sounding voice was the only thing that saved him from Matt saying that anyone could kiss anyone. It stopped his open jaw in it's tracks and he raised his eyebrow at it. Starkly, that wasn't going to change just because Mello turned around. Though, seeing Mello turned around like that, looking hurt. That he didn't like and that also calmed whatever suddenly unimportant thing it was he had been wanting to say, long forgotten for seeing Mello with some sort of raw emotion. This was what he had wanted, he wanted the truth and Mello's acting skills were incredible, but this wasn't acting. Even Mello would've fallen short on wanting to look hurt and to what end? None. There was no gain in looking vulnerable in the middle of a late night kitchen.
Where his voice probably wouldn't have been tempered before if he hadn't heard what he deemed to be true hurt in Mello's voice, he probably would have had a lot more to say about this in a lot more harsh tone. Instead, he spoke evenly with a soft sigh. "I see your point, Mello, but you're missing mine." Again a softer voice than maybe he wanted. "I followed you for more than a decade. You knew my decision before you wanted verification. If actions are supposed to speak louder than words, and that's what you're saying here, that should have been enough."
The point was made, but he wanted to continue on. "But it isn't, is it? Actions. I don't want this to just be me telling you how I feel. Currently, because I've been hoping you'd just tell me." Which was dumb, Mello wasn't the type, but the hope had been there. "You are the same person I grew up with, you're the same person I've known all my life. All that other shit doesn't matter. You matter. L doesn't matter, Near might be my friend but he doesn't matter. None of that shit factors in to Mello. It never has."
Pushing himself take a few steps closer, regardless what Mello did or didn't do, Matt concluded. "Now that it's in voice and words, I'll ask you again. Did you figure out how you feel about me, not about your guilt over what I do or don't do, or not?"
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Where his voice probably wouldn't have been tempered before if he hadn't heard what he deemed to be true hurt in Mello's voice, he probably would have had a lot more to say about this in a lot more harsh tone. Instead, he spoke evenly with a soft sigh. "I see your point, Mello, but you're missing mine." Again a softer voice than maybe he wanted. "I followed you for more than a decade. You knew my decision before you wanted verification. If actions are supposed to speak louder than words, and that's what you're saying here, that should have been enough."
The point was made, but he wanted to continue on. "But it isn't, is it? Actions. I don't want this to just be me telling you how I feel. Currently, because I've been hoping you'd just tell me." Which was dumb, Mello wasn't the type, but the hope had been there. "You are the same person I grew up with, you're the same person I've known all my life. All that other shit doesn't matter. You matter. L doesn't matter, Near might be my friend but he doesn't matter. None of that shit factors in to Mello. It never has."
Pushing himself take a few steps closer, regardless what Mello did or didn't do, Matt concluded. "Now that it's in voice and words, I'll ask you again. Did you figure out how you feel about me, not about your guilt over what I do or don't do, or not?"