One of the things with Alex Reagan is that she connects things. In some ways, that's her true sort of super power, the way that what appears to be leaps of logic are actually Alex pulling at the threads of the story until they bind her into a place that she lives in now with all of her not sleeping and being haunted. She knows that she's the one who brought Simon into the story (sort of, because he'd made himself seen until Alex couldn't ignore him.) rather than Strand, and she's the one who chased down Coralee and Warren and Maddie Franks. Alex also knows that Simon was using the show as research even if it's not something that they talk about. With the distance that being here on Navi provided, Alex is able to see that more clearly than she'd ever had wanted to.
But Alex remembers Simon's warning before she even knew that there was a Simon, or anything about many things that she knows now. Simon had warned Alex that Strand wasn't who she thought and it was true, but it had also been one of the things that had wound her up and sent her in that direction. Honestly, Alex wonders if Simon regrets doing that now. It's another thing that she doesn't ask but only for the moment when his head is hurting. It'll happen later because there's no way that Alex is letting it go. Alex doesn't know how to let things go.
As she muses, Alex speaks aloud, because it's something that she always does. It's a reminder of her time that she's worked in audio when each bit of the story had been recorded. "If I were to like diagram everything I know now, including all of those parts, the thing that would be at the very center of all of this is Strand. It's always been Strand." Which is true. Strand is the Mantle of the Dragon. Strand's family had something in his blood. Strand was being watched by Coralee and everything that had gone into it. But Alex can also hear what she expects to be Simon's next question because he'd asked it so often: and? So Alex answers it too. "And I'm...." A pause as Alex tries to distill whatever the fuck was going on between her and Richard Strand into an actual concept that's less nebulous.
So, she instead goes into what they'd spoken about before when Alex had first found Simon onboard. "I'm the one who sees the threads on the tapestry. That's what you'd said before. That's what I was supposed to do. But it changed, and now what I'm doing in addition too instead of is sort of acting like a tether that keeps Richard involved. I'm not even sure what we are at this point, but that's how I ended up at the center, because of the connection between Strand and I, whatever it is."
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But Alex remembers Simon's warning before she even knew that there was a Simon, or anything about many things that she knows now. Simon had warned Alex that Strand wasn't who she thought and it was true, but it had also been one of the things that had wound her up and sent her in that direction. Honestly, Alex wonders if Simon regrets doing that now. It's another thing that she doesn't ask but only for the moment when his head is hurting. It'll happen later because there's no way that Alex is letting it go. Alex doesn't know how to let things go.
As she muses, Alex speaks aloud, because it's something that she always does. It's a reminder of her time that she's worked in audio when each bit of the story had been recorded. "If I were to like diagram everything I know now, including all of those parts, the thing that would be at the very center of all of this is Strand. It's always been Strand." Which is true. Strand is the Mantle of the Dragon. Strand's family had something in his blood. Strand was being watched by Coralee and everything that had gone into it. But Alex can also hear what she expects to be Simon's next question because he'd asked it so often: and? So Alex answers it too. "And I'm...." A pause as Alex tries to distill whatever the fuck was going on between her and Richard Strand into an actual concept that's less nebulous.
So, she instead goes into what they'd spoken about before when Alex had first found Simon onboard. "I'm the one who sees the threads on the tapestry. That's what you'd said before. That's what I was supposed to do. But it changed, and now what I'm doing in addition too instead of is sort of acting like a tether that keeps Richard involved. I'm not even sure what we are at this point, but that's how I ended up at the center, because of the connection between Strand and I, whatever it is."